where i'm @ 2

Straight from the dome, one take as un-incriminating as i can be, here is me.
Firstly shout out to music in general for being 1 of 3 anchors too sanity
Special shout outs Darwin Deez, Kendrick Lamar, Lucy Rose, LL Cool J and Tyler the creator

Now to buzznuzz
Firstly i'm at the bottom of this huge emotional well with a blonde rope as my only support (yeah i'm all about imagery and metaphors)
I'm basically a potato until uni starts and i can get my life back on track, home life is just so repetitive. Being at home is like a cheap imitation of freedom, i'm still bound by the constraints/blessings that are my family. The thought of being in third year/ the anxiousness of the awesomeness that MIGHT be third year have kept me up till around 3am every night since i passed second year 3 months ago. I prepared to fail and failed at failing.

Detachment from friends due to isolation and funding is pretty sweet if you're into loosing all your friends and being poor. On top of that my carelessness may just land me a repeat of last year, but the worst part is i feel like a blank slate, all this shit is just happening while i sit helplessly; I've never been more grey. I feel trapped. by my own psyche, my home, my everything is closing in and i'm uncool with being cool about this.

My emo fruit detox is going well, although i did have a slip up when i was at a party, i always forget why i don't drink until its too late,

I feel like i should break things, I've wanted to break my PC for days now and its not even acting up. I've got this silent rage right now and oh fuck am i a volcano i can feel it coming. Don't worry I'm not a serial killer (But that's what a serial killer would say) I've got a good hold on it but i want to break me? i'm the only thing that can realistically recover from a thrashing if you think about it(TY evolution) non lethal damage ofc. I'M A MAN OF LOGIC GOD DAMN IT.

I have plans to go to a field and yell a bunch of times tomorrow, listen to some music maybe run about a bit. i also feel like i'm describing myself like a free range hen who gained sentience. Oh brain <3

Besides that i'm a big fan of the whole "Netflix and chill" thing that going on its ironically hilarious
Sleep can suck a dick
I've learnt how to make the most amazing wedges in my solidarity
I'm stoked to get a job at uni
I'm kinda stoked to maybe pass this year
I'm stoked to get my confidence back, i'm a siphon
I'm looking forward to Star Wars
I am a sheep and all hail our lord and savior Jesus Krust

Peace