Familia agradecida

Unknown celebrations of which I was gifted,

Filled bellies and thinned blood,

Earfuls of laugher and mouthfuls of love,

A warmth id expect from my own but not owed,

We were all tangled at the wrists,

Content with this misplacement,

Crossed oceans to attend this intimate gathering,

Two feet atop forty thousand just to see you,

Eyes darting and stuck open wide,

Lights as bright as the company shared,

The rain wouldn't make me miss a thing,

In awe of where I landed and what I left,

Everything besides mother natures interference,
Made the stones skip similarly across the pond.

The Air Tastes "Different" Here

I was a small man hailing from similar land,
A subtlety I wished I wasn't privy to,

Attempting to tread the same steps as my idols,
Each footprint forward seemed smaller than the last,
Swallowed as the trees gained height around me,

Lichen masking them with a youthful vibrancy,

Whilst their roots older than the nation they serve,

I recount the saying: "The sky is bigger in America",

Watching as the soils stretched overhead and upwards,  

Displaying humbly each of its earthen crowns,

My gaze became too much for my eyes to swallow,

As I was left to wallow in my impotence,
Forced to contemplate my miniscule presence.

Here in this bastion of hardwood and bloodshed,

Partaking in the same gluttony I brand heresy, 

Toasting to descendants of the morally unjust,

Every action gave way to a lamenting moment,
The things I spare no thought for gain traction here,
The breaths of my own territory were tedious,
But in this state every inhalation was an entrée,
Safe roads we drove went nowhere familiar, 

The same heaven above looked alien,

Faces of the mob seemed suddenly exotic, 

Light danced with me behind the scenes,

Whilst my native tongue now fails me,

At least it's not from behind a screen.

The Legends of La-La Land

I had never seen such a filtered gaze,
Bisected at first glance,
The pieces turned to stone and crashed,
At the feet of medusa and her bladed eyes,
Picturesque in umbers and ivories,

Every last look was lethal.

She held inside her many faces,

Brine more pure than any ocean,

Bound to float amidst the waves,

Beached those who would breach her depths,

Unaware of the reflecting constellations, 

Poseidon coveted for more than Amphitrite.

Pharaonic glyphs carved in her flesh,

Buried within lost labyrinths,

Rested in your simple tomb,

Your insides pristine and as real as the rest,

Glaring red on your wrists and chest,
Raising those susceptible.

Little red slayer of wolves,

Was swallowed whole to rest in the warmth,

A tiger laced with stripes and stars,

Escaped and bushed the forest vermillion,

Under the hood laid a competent beast,

With cries and roars mistaken for melodies.

Heroines bow strung tight with riddles,

Quiver stocked full of cherubs tips,

Earned from the rich to pierce the poor,

And aimed with such precision,

Accepted the volley and crumbled at her feet,

The fortunate skewered in sentiment.

Riding or robin was never the question, 

Regardless this maiden might kill me,

Guide me realms unknown by most,

And choose me to be slain,

The description of angel to modest,

This was a Valkyrie too sweet in her embrace.

No single myth could capture your story,

All these unimaginable things and more.

What I Might "Need"

Out here trading vices,
One constriction for another,

Bound to the business of addiction,

An inescapable stock,

Weighted round my arms and neck, 

Embracing what is thrown my way.

Charred Coffin of Chains

My only pure and shameful ambition,
Is striving for the final aspect of these blueprints.

I cant remember not yearning for the iron curtains close,
The lid pressed down on me and sealed tight,
To feel warmth enough to melt me down,

I lit up these different sources as substitute,
Oblivious that they might be used to bind me on ignition,

I became a hollow screaming forge begging for fuel,
Reality would cool me down to the frozen ground,

Resisting the thaw of my ironbound prison,

As I was barely contained in a broken mould,
I became an architect to greater designs.

Spent a decade smithing this mortal coil,
Pressing past and ignoring its impurities,
Only to find it compromised by my tempering,
The links bound to me began to weigh me down,
Those same circles formed into twisted chain links,
And I could not steel myself against their frigid touch,
As I looked beneath me I could see no end, 

I heard the melodic clanking as i was dragged down,

Grating my flesh into something easily buried,

Finally.

Audrinary

Spoken too with crescents and hypotheticals,

A light enough to guide these butterflies,

An old forgotten spark to burn them on ascension,

Your very being summons swarms straight from the ashes.

From your lips slip the subtle words of the breathless,

Each one tailored between teeth for an addicts pallet,

I drowned in the consumption of this euphoric babble,

Yet my mind remained as lethargic and empty as my lungs.

Enter a scent so sweet I forgot my own miasma,

Blew down the fort I built from smog and smoke,

Open to this new red veil that falls over my pupils,

Enthralled by an essence that stagnates me in my frenzy.

Little lives you created from the cardboard cut-out,

So easily sliced when the blade never dulls,

Left a trail of sightless wielders in your wake,

Not even the darkness could take these patterns from me.

Cannibalized the tail to seem smaller than you are,

Still able to ensnare with the tales you collected,

The fables described the block of stone that remained,

Prophecy into a reality as you laid each brick before you.

Twitching limbs suspend us in every temporary moment,

Those ticking hands held tight around my face,

I was displaced amidst inconsequential eras,

And even they ground slowly between our layers of cogs.

Harbouring W.M.A's

Tunnelled under the bunker,
Stuck a sunset to the periscopes end and watched,
My immense investment,
Burn up around the edges.

This exposed my selfish works,
Emptied the stockpiles to unveil this menagerie,
I wish I could see them again,
Those weaponised anxieties,

I mourned the bricks I'd laid out,
Elaborate walls built to contain the immaterial,
The inexorable imprisonment,
Of my incompressible entities. 

Their form betrays their function,
Creations considered common feats of engineering,
Contraptions unwillingly given sentience,
Causing any entropy before their own.

These creations, 

My unfortunate creations,
They'll destroy the world.

Nostalgia for A'dolt

Yearn for the taste,

The hot shared air in breaths we take,

Forgotten flavors that I once craved,
Ripened Musk, our fibers flayed,

Affects the way I still behave.

Covet the tension,

Lips in all shades of vermillion,

Smooth flesh warped into prickled skin,

Arcs traced, blessed with experience,

Our moral tests of resilience.

Thirst for the interest,

The first thought seemed listless,
Like that, our mouths were twisted,
That motion denied me existence,
Those moreish lips of my mistress. 

Patricide

I had tried killed all manifestations of "Father",

Since receiving this cursed idol, 

It turned my matrons into witches,

Until I was blessed with comprehension,

I was lost in a place that seemed timeless,

Fanstiysing patricide,

Ended for once on my own terms,
Guilty of the thousands of times after.

The internal was hardest to cleanse,

It had built-up barriers for me blunder through,

Scratching the surface was the most painful way in,

I dug with a frenzy, Intent to purge,

As if I would strike a silver vein,

The prospect of some great wealth within,

Heaved up with the same spent hands, 

Roused by the carrot and the stick.

I was guided into the arms of an immortal green giant,

And in comfort, I justified the substitute,

I needed an excuse to look down on something,

Scared of where I had found myself,

I'd wince at the thought of the inevitable fall,

Only after my back touched the ground did I laugh,

What once looked strange from far away,

I could hardly wait to get closer too.

This road I've rebuilt is the same path I walk,
I've missed crucial features, through the monotony of the step, 

The dirt between my toes reminding me why I jumped,

I make these mirages real, to keep me walking,

Heart set for imaginary paradise,

Convinced you were nothing but a shadow,

Where never looking back meant never looking up

Maybe in this old darkness, I'll wander back to reality.